Today was a great day for me. I kept most of the promises that I made for myself. I was slightly more determined to do so than I was yesterday. I spent the morning shopping with my father. I’m realizing that we have developed a few routines and shopping together is one of them. The sun was shining so bright and it put us in a really good mood. After we returned home and put away the groceries, I prepared myself for my Compass Top Earner’s call with our Founder Kim Fulcher. As I listened to her deliver our training, I felt extra sensitive to her message, as if it had been prepared just for me. She spoke about giving away your power and being a victim, blaming others for the wrongs in your life and gave tactical advice on how to counteract that type of thinking and behavior. She said we should embrace the inner victor and to take responsibility for our lives. She touched on a few other areas as well, but these two in particular really stayed with me. She always says “What do you want? Now, what are you going to do about it?”. I started to reflect on this after the call, but then became distracted by some of my other “to-dos”.
A few short hours later, a friend of mine asked me to send her my bio for an upcoming show for which I will be a guest. In the midst of multi-tasking and listening to the “white noise” I sent her a bio that I knew didn’t truly reflect who I am, but seemed to be more professional. The soft voice in my head suggested that I not send it, but I listened to the louder voice that said otherwise. Now, I know we ALL hear voices in our head, right? I do. And what I have learned by trial and error is that I should trust the first voice, the softer voice and not the next one that is usually cloaked in fear, hesitation and procrastination. And, almost without fail, when I follow the instructions of the louder voice the results that it yields are not what I wanted. I end up saying, “I knew I should have….”. So, this time was no different.
My phone rang and I am excited to see that it is my girlfriend. I must admit that she and I have never met face-to-face. We’ve had an online and telephone friendship for at least 3 years now. We have connected soul-to-soul, however. She “sees” me. She loves me, and I her. This I know for sure. We begin chatting it up and she shares some really deep and enlightening experiences with me that evokes deep emotions within me. She then gently asks me to rewrite my bio and share the real “me”. She called a spade a “spade”. She saw right through me. I paused and then explained. She shared some more of her own personal experiences with me. I began to cry because it was the release that I needed. I hadn’t realized that I had gotten off base within myself. She was bringing me back “home”. Back to center, back to my nucleus. It was as if a door had been opened and I was able to see “me”. The authentic me. I really needed to return back to this place so that I could remember, relate and celebrate the uniqueness that lies within me. I don’t have to “BE” anything other than the truly authentic woman who I am. The woman who is in touch with my past, but who is perfectly present.
I thank God for placing key people in my life who can help guide me back toward my path when I stumble off course. That is truly a blessing and a miracle in today’s world where people are so caught up in the competition of friendships and embracing “the haters” as if it gives them some type of credibility. I am simply humbled by the fact that I have people who love me so dearly that they will pull my coat-tail and say “hey, come back to yourself”. The training that I received earlier in the day about embracing your inner victor, coupled with the exchange between myself and Heidi (that’s the girlfriend) really moved me today. It reminds me of a saying by Susan Taylor “Give yourself to yourself before you give yourself away.”